Thomas reacts to the death of Jesus by going off by himself alone to
deal with his loss. He probably went over his contacts with Jesus to
see where he (Thomas) had been wrong. This Jesus whom he thought had
the key that would tie all his searching and synthesizing together now
had died ignominiously on a Cross. He needed time alone to process his
thoughts, to regroup. He was dealing with the darkness of doubt. When he
does rejoin the group he is presented with the information that they
have seen the Lord. He thinks that this must be some kind of delusional
thinking. He must have his own personal proof, put his finger in the
wounds of the hand and his hand into the side.
Jesus comes to Thomas. Jesus particularizes his approach to Thomas.
There is nothing of the don’t touch words directed to Mary Magdalene.
In fact Jesus tells him just the opposite, come and touch.
Thomas is overwhelmed and bursts forth his own, My Lord and My God.
His profession of faith must have enriched the others. Thomas was the
one who gathered so much information, he was always perceiving things,
even things that others missed. Doubting Thomas became believing Thomas
and inspired the others to greater depths of belief.
Peter responds to the death of Jesus by returning to his familiar
home and task, fishing in Galilee. He was overwhelmed by all that had
happened to Jesus and how it had all affected him. He obsessed about
his own protests, his denials, his flight, his going out and weeping
bitterly. It was all too much for him. He was overwhelmed by the
darkness of his own powerful emotions. He was in a fog.
So when Jesus comes to them on the shore, Peter doesn’t recognize
Jesus but John does. But upon recognition he does the impulsive thing
(Peter always seemed to be doing the impulsive thing) and jumps into the
Jesus takes Peter by himself and questions him, “Simon, son of John
do you love me?” Peter responds, “Yes Lord you know that I love you.”
But it would seem that Peter’s heart wasn’t in it. Maybe he was still
dealing with the fact that he had denied Jesus. A second time Jesus
questions him: “Simon son of John do you love me.” Peter’s response
was the same a second time. Now he was probably preoccupied with the
fact that he had denied knowing Jesus not once but three times. A third
time Jesus questions Peter, and this time the emotional Peter comes
through. The Gospel writer tells us: “Peter was distressed that he had
said to him a third time, ‘Do you love me?’ and he said to him, Lord you
know everything; you know that I love you.” Now that Peter was engaged
with his emotions Jesus could tell him more. Peter would have to
surrender. “…when you were younger, you used to dress yourself and go
where you wanted; but when you grow old, you will stretch out your
hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not
want to go.” Jesus uses images, symbols in dealing with Peter, feeder
of lambs and sheep, bound for the Lord.
In Peter’s surrender Jesus could say to Simon, now Peter again,
But Peter was preoccupied about the beloved disciple that was
following: “Lord what about him?” The content of Jesus’ words is Peter
don’t worry about him, just do what I want of you. Peter did this.